I Found Love

Where do you look for love?

Is it in a man, a woman, a friend, a neighbor? Do you look for it online or in the news? Have you found it?

I found love, and it has come in a way I never would have expected.

It’s beautiful and breathtaking. It’s something I never knew could be so wild and warm. It’s real. It exists and it is the most beautiful thing anyone could ever hold in their hands, and in their heart.

I didn’t just find a radical love in God, but I found it coming out of myself because of Him, and then continually spreading into the Body of Christ. 

Matthew 22:27-39 And He said to him, “ ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. 38 “This is the great and foremost commandment. 39 “The second is like it, ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’

If God told you to Go, Would You? 

When I moved to Bethlehem, my heart started to race with excitement because I knew love was coming. I felt it in my bones. I didn’t know what was next, but God told me to move and so, not knowing where I was going to live or what was going to happen next, I took the leap of faith and moved to Bethlehem, with not much of a plan in place.

As I unpacked and settled in, I had this image of a lover holding me. I knew I was going to feel held in this apartment. It was the image of a man, but I didn’t know it was going to be such a greater love then I could ever imagine. A love was about to come that no man could ever give or take away from me.

I Found Love. 

As I’m writing this, my eyes are filled with tears. I can’t believe or comprehend what all has happened in this beautiful two bedroom apartment in downtown Bethlehem. 

The Lord romanced me so much while I have been growing here. There really is no way to describe the beautiful things He has done for me. 

I have felt held by Him in this apartment. I have been spoken to and comforted by Him. I have received signs and wonders to reassure me of His goodness. I have battled with Him and prayed when I wanted to give up. I have seeked Him for help when my sin was getting the best of me. I have been so loved by Him. 

I desperately pray you get to feel this radical kind of love like I have. It is absolutely out of this world. It is better than any drug and any worldly passion. It is eternally breathtaking.

On top of all the love the Lord had started to give me, each year keeps getting better and better with Him. 

True Love Preservers Through it All. 

This doesn’t consist of all sunshine and rainbows however.

Many people have taken my joy in the past as ignorance, but I have always been far from ignorant. I have always just chosen to choose joy no matter what was to come, because for the majority of my life, there was always a rough road to get through. 

Pslam 118:24 “This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”

I’ve seen loved ones suffer because of someone’s sin. I’ve seen horrible arguments and abuse, both physical and verbal. I’ve seen my dead sister cold blue on the floor. I’ve held my friend’s who lost loved ones too young to drugs. I’ve heard rapes and I have seen abuse in our governing authorities.

I’m nowhere close to ignorant, and I have found true love. Yes, they both can fall hand in hand. 

This deep love that I can’t even explain originated from Jesus Christ. The depths of His forgiveness and overflow of grace has radically transformed my entire life. I said yes to allowing his love to pour so much into me, that it started to pour out into others. I couldn’t help but give it away, and it truthfully wasn’t me.

It was the love of God in me. 1374169_10202185758706770_1505916736_n.jpg

2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!

This new transformation that God does in you when you receive Christ as your Lord and Savior doesn’t just give you love from the Father, but He promises more blessings to follow.

Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

A more radical love has fallen into my heart and that has come from me choosing to cover all things in love. 

1 Peter 4:8: “Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.”

I’ve found such a beautiful love in the Body of Christ! There is a love here in Bethlehem that I can not shake. I can not stop thinking about. It’s a love that is so present and real. It’s a love that moves mountains. It’s a love that doesn’t stop. It’s forever. It’s beautiful. It’s alive. It’s in my heart 24/7; even when I am asleep. 

How Did This Love Start? 

It started with Jesus dying for my sins. Then it started with me receiving that into my heart and believing who He says He says. Read: John 9-10

Once I received this I was so full that I couldn’t help but give it away. This outpouring of love, unselfish giving, sacrificing, and forgiving, has brought the Body of Christ together in a more powerful way. Loving is very hard, don’t get me wrong, but it is absolutely worth it.

1 Corinthians 13:4 “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.”

I’ve never seen this kind of love in a community, but I’m seeing it, and it is very real. As humbly as I can confess, I’m seeing that it started with me choosing to follow Jesus. Only by the grace of God have I found the understanding of who Jesus is; only by the grace of God. 

Sincerely following Jesus isn’t preaching and telling everyone who is right and who is wrong. Sincerely following Jesus is first choosing to believe in Him. Once you confess with your mouth and believe in your heart that He is Lord, there is no going back. You begin to seek Him so much, that He continually keeps changing you for the better. He continually keeps changing you for the world. 

Through the love of Christ, I found love. 

I found a deep love in God.

I found a deep and pure love in my self.

And I found a deep love in others. 

Are You Afraid to Love? 

I pressed in to the uncomfortable. I pressed in to the discomfort. I chose to love. I chose to build and work in the Kingdom, and love came, a deep and reckless love. I found love in so many members of the Church Body. I found friends who sit awhile and pray with you. Friends that no matter what may be going on in their lives, they are there with a shoulder of comfort, a word of praise, and an ear of nonjudgmental patience, desperately pursuing God’s voice to help them love better. 

As soon as  I moved to Bethlehem, I knew that many people would be coming through my doors to learn about Jesus. I felt it and it excited me beyond measure. 

That day has come now where many people are coming in and out of my house, all in the name of Jesus, and the love that is found here is absolutely beautiful. There is something very special and unique about this House Bible Study, and I believe all the members would agree. Each person sincerely loves God and is chasing after him. And above their heart for God, they each have a heart for one another. They are all friends that pray together, and carry each other’s burdens. 

The Bible Study has become more than a one night event, but an entire lifestyle of going through life together.

Once you choose to love someone, they are less afraid to love you back. 

John 13:35  By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

I’m so thankful to be a part of this love from the Lord. It is absolutely breathtaking, and to believe it all first originated from the love of Jesus, and Him dying on the cross for my sins. 

Will You Step Out and Love?

1 John 4:19 We love because he first loved us.

If you’re looking for love, maybe you should choose to receive it from our God first, and then once you are full, don’t be afraid and give it away. When you give, you end up receiving more then you could possibly imagine. Sometimes you may not be loved back, but if you don’t give up and love the Lord with all your heart and all your your mind, and your neighbor as yourself, you will see goodness in the land of the living.

Matthew 22:27-39 And He said to him, “ ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. 38 “This is the great and foremost commandment. 39 “The second is like it, ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’

Pslam 27:13 I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

Acts 20:35  In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’ ”

I found love. 

I first found it in Christ. 

Then I found it in myself through the Holy Spirit.

And finally, I found it in others once I gave it away.


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